everytime i get hurt, i tell myself i'll become distant and cold. but somehow, i always go back to being kind and talkative like nothing happened. and i guess that pretty sums me up as a person. i still laugh, still care, and still treat people with the same kindness. maybe that's just who i am. pain changes me for a moment, but it never fully takes away my good heart. no matter how many times life tries to harden me…

Channel
Iris
@irissnotess
On this record: Topic · Growth · Engagement · What this channel posts · Stars · Posts · Citations · Cite this entry
2,657subscribers
-20 since we began measuring on 13 August 2026
Risers and fallers across the register · movement among entries of 1,000–3,162.
Register entry
| Telegram ID | -1002625695992 |
|---|---|
| Type | Channel |
| Username | @irissnotess |
| Created | Between 1 March 2025 and 31 July 2025 — estimated from Telegram’s id allocation, not measured. How this range is calculated. |
| First recorded | 13 August 2026 |
| Last confirmed live | 18 September 2026 |
| Measurements held | 12 |
| Confirmed unchanged | 1 time, most recently 18 September 2026 |
| On Telegram | t.me/irissnotess |
Topic
Personal blog — a classification, not a measurement. An on-box language model (Qwen3.6-35B-A3B-FP8, prompt version 1) read this channel’s own recent posts on 15 September 2026 and assigned it the closest of 31 fixed categories, at 98% confidence. This is a model’s judgement about what the channel is likely to be about, not a fact this register measured the way a subscriber count or a view count is measured — it can be revised on a later pass, and it carries no weight anywhere else on this page. How this classification works, and why it has no browse page of its own yet.
Growth
| Measured (UTC) | Subscribers | Change |
|---|---|---|
| 18 Sept 2026, 09:21 | 2,657 | -17 |
| 14 Sept 2026, 05:00 | 2,674 | -15 |
| 10 Sept 2026, 22:19 | 2,689 | +25 |
| 5 Sept 2026, 16:01 | 2,664 | -35 |
| 1 Sept 2026, 07:45 | 2,699 | -30 |
| 29 Aug 2026, 16:04 | 2,729 | -23 |
| 26 Aug 2026, 14:28 | 2,752 | -20 |
| 23 Aug 2026, 05:05 | 2,772 | -33 |
| 19 Aug 2026, 11:08 | 2,805 | -16 |
| 16 Aug 2026, 18:37 | 2,821 | +37 |
| 13 Aug 2026, 12:35 | 2,784 | +107 |
| 13 Aug 2026, 01:00 | 2,677 | first reading |
Engagement
20 posts held, back to 29 July 2026 — the reader has not yet reached the start of this channel’s public history, so older posts may sit further back, unread. Read across 1 page of Telegram’s post history, 20 posts per page.
Nothing published in the last 30 days. ERR and ER are rolling 30-day measures, so there is nothing to compute — we hold 20 posts for this entry, the most recent from 12 August 2026. An engagement rate over an empty window would be a number about nothing.
What this channel posts
- Video runtime
- 42s
- Average length
- 14s
Measured directly from 3 videos with a duration reading, out of the posts we hold for this channel — not this channel’s whole posting history, only the sample this register has actually read. An exact reading to the second, taken from the post itself rather than from Telegram’s own rounded chrome, so it carries no ≈ mark.
Telegram Stars
- Stars received
- 4
- across the posts below
- Posts paid on
- 4
- of 20 we hold a reading for · 20%
- Most on one post
- 1
- single highest reading
A paid reaction is a reader spending Telegram Stars — bought with money — on a post by @irissnotess. Telegram publishes the count on the public post preview alongside ordinary reactions, and this register reads it there. It is the only figure on this site that measures money moving rather than attention.
Stars are not reactions, and the two are never added. They are rendered in the same strip on Telegram and counted in the same shape, but one is a tap and the other is a purchase. The reaction totals and the engagement rate elsewhere on this page exclude every figure in this section, and no rate here is computed against a reaction count.
This is not revenue, and we publish no currency figure. What a Star costs a reader and what it pays a channel are different numbers, Telegram takes a share we cannot observe, and the terms have changed. Converting a Star count into money would be an estimate dressed as a measurement, so the count is where we stop.
Counted over the 20 most recent posts we hold for this entry, published 29 July 2026 to 12 August 2026. Star counts above 1,000 reach us in Telegram’s short form and carry the same three-significant-figure rounding as everything else on this page.
Recent posts
the hardest part is pretending that it doesn't affect you when deep down it has already destroyed you.
We are prone to error, but the door to His mercy is always open, as long as we return to Him with sincere hearts.
Hope I make it outta here
in your 20's you'll feel like you're losing the race, it's important you realize there is no race.
Video, posted without a caption
to become the person u want to be u have to destroy the person u are
Video, posted without a caption
Step into uncertainty. If you fail, you gain wisdom. If you win, you gain a new life.
Being desired is easy. Being adored like this is rare. There is a difference between someone wanting your attention and someone truly seeing you. Attention can be loud. Desire can be temporary. Flirting can feel exciting for a moment. But devotion? Devotion feels different. It is the way someone notices the smallest parts of you. The way they speak about you when you are not trying to be impressive. The way they…
The hardest battles at this age are the ones no one sees. No one sees the stress. No one hears the overthinking at 2 AM. No one knows how many times you almost gave up. You keep it all inside. You act like everything is okay. You laugh with people. You show up every day. You tell everyone you're fine. But deep down... you're exhausted. Confused. Fighting thoughts you can't even explain. Some nights feel heavier than …
Dear August, please be the beginning of something kinder and softer for all of us
Showing the 12 most recent of 20 posts we hold for @irissnotess. View and reaction counts are the latest single reading for each post, not a live figure, and a recent post is still accumulating both. A view count marked ≈ was rounded by Telegram before we ever saw it — t.me prints views in full below 1,000 and to three significant figures above, so ≈1,200,000 means somewhere between 1,150,000 and 1,249,999. Unmarked counts are exact. Text is reproduced from the public post preview and truncated for length.
Stars beside a post are paid reactions — Telegram Stars, bought with money and spent on that post. They are a different unit from reactions and are never added to them, here or anywhere else on this page.
Mentions
Named by 1 registered channel — every channel on the register whose own posts have named this one, by its current username or any other username it currently holds, merged from two separately captured readings of the same fact so a namer caught by only one of them is not missed and a namer both caught is not counted twice. A username this channel has since dropped is not matched — that handle may belong to someone else now, and crediting today’s namer to yesterday’s owner would misattribute it.
Named by
Channels on the register whose posts name this channel's handle.
A mention is a weaker signal than a forward and is counted separately for that reason — naming a channel is not republishing it, and a handle in a post body is easy to place deliberately. The post counts beside each row below are distinct posts in which the handle appeared, from posts we have read on both sides — the “Named by N registered channels” figure above is a different count, of distinct NAMING CHANNELS rather than posts, and is not the sum of the rows under it.
Cite this entry
A live page changes as we take new readings, so a citation should name the measurement it is based on, not just the URL. The line below cites the subscriber count as measured 18 September 2026 — this entry's latest reading, not the date you are reading this.
“Iris” (@irissnotess), 2,657 subscribers as measured 18 September 2026. Telegram Register, tgregister.com/channel/irissnotess.
Full measurement history, CC BY 4.0. Every reading this register holds for this entry, not just the latest one, as a dated, downloadable record: CSV · JSON. Free to use with attribution to tgregister.com. Each file carries its own generation timestamp, which is the figure to cite for exactly when the data was retrieved.