#commentary I'm feeling anxious. I need to tell the world I'm still here. Even if I don't know what I'm supposed to do.

Channel
SB's Draft Piles
@writing_draftpiles
On this record: Topic · Growth · Engagement · Posts · Citations · Telegram's recommendations · Cite this entry
1,892subscribers
-20 since we began measuring on 6 August 2026
Risers and fallers across the register · movement among entries of 1,000–3,162.
Register entry
| Telegram ID | -1001289730717 |
|---|---|
| Type | Channel |
| Username | @writing_draftpiles |
| Created | 21 March 2018 — measured — cross-checked against a third-party dataset (ext.tg_channel) |
| First recorded | 6 August 2026 |
| Last confirmed live | 19 September 2026 |
| Measurements held | 12 |
| Confirmed unchanged | 1 time, most recently 19 September 2026 |
| On Telegram | t.me/writing_draftpiles |
Topic
Personal blog — a classification, not a measurement. An on-box language model (Qwen3.6-35B-A3B-FP8, prompt version 1) read this channel’s own recent posts on 16 September 2026 and assigned it the closest of 31 fixed categories, at 68% confidence. This is a model’s judgement about what the channel is likely to be about, not a fact this register measured the way a subscriber count or a view count is measured — it can be revised on a later pass, and it carries no weight anywhere else on this page. How this classification works, and why it has no browse page of its own yet.
Growth
| Measured (UTC) | Subscribers | Change |
|---|---|---|
| 19 Sept 2026, 10:17 | 1,892 | -3 |
| 14 Sept 2026, 16:17 | 1,895 | -1 |
| 10 Sept 2026, 22:41 | 1,896 | -10 |
| 2 Sept 2026, 07:36 | 1,906 | -5 |
| 28 Aug 2026, 02:06 | 1,911 | +2 |
| 25 Aug 2026, 09:12 | 1,909 | -2 |
| 22 Aug 2026, 13:28 | 1,911 | +2 |
| 19 Aug 2026, 07:13 | 1,909 | -3 |
| 13 Aug 2026, 00:34 | 1,912 | -2 |
| 10 Aug 2026, 09:10 | 1,914 | +2 |
| 6 Aug 2026, 23:00 | 1,912 | no change |
| 6 Aug 2026, 22:54 | 1,912 | first reading |
Engagement
20 posts held, back to 1 April 2026 — the reader has not yet reached the start of this channel’s public history, so older posts may sit further back, unread. Read across 2 pages of Telegram’s post history, 20 posts per page.
Nothing published in the last 30 days. ERR and ER are rolling 30-day measures, so there is nothing to compute — we hold 20 posts for this entry, the most recent from 31 July 2026. An engagement rate over an empty window would be a number about nothing.
Recent posts
Scream of a dying flower. Song of the lost and forgotten. #random #mantra(?)
(Because now that I've confessed it; I'll live even in my dying.) #random #draft (04.07.2026)
So how did it come to this? How did I come to think, now, "It's alright; I'll learn to accept death again and again, again. I'll do it as many times as it comes." Why...? (3/4)
... I was jealous of living people. Those who are free to go where they want. Those who are blessed with bounty on their plates. Those who can express whatever and however they want. I am jealous. I'm suffocating; I'm trapped; My blessings are counted. I'm jealous. (2/4)
"We are the canary in the coal mine." "So tell me, little one, as you are suffocating, what would you like to do?" "Know that you are just the first among many; many, that will follow you into this grave." "So tell me, little one, as you are suffocating, what would you like to do?" I close my eyes and start praying. (1/4)
This ugly side of me is a family heirloom. But it doesn't matter now where I got it from. I have to decide where to keep it, how to live with it. And that's the wretched thing about it. (Raven, 20.06.2026)
Who would have thought to be unseen is this painful? Is this why our oath sounds thus? "I bear witness..." #random #draft (17.06.2026)
And now I realized: this fight to understand my value has never been to make me valuable. (Because I am, always have been, valuable.) This fight will not give me what I deserve or desire. This fight has always been just the beginning; and its end will be when I end my betrayers. #draft (16.06.2026)
#commentary It's just been in my mind these days. I should be grateful there's food prepared for me. But when it's not appetizing, for one reason or another, should I have just forced myself to eat it? They say to cook is to love. There are people out there whose love language is cooking for their loved ones. I can understand the sentiment, to some degree. But I have often found it... burdening, in occasions. Especi…
For a while, now, it has been nagging at the border of my mind. There were food prepared for me. But it has gone cold. I don't know how to enjoy it well. It should have been a blessing, a generosity. But before I knew it— It's become a burden. How should I express this? "I appreciate your care, But I can't eat this anymore"? What am I supposed to do with this food? I don't have the heart to throw it away; I…
I had a dream, Hell reviewed my case; "You're better off humans," they said Cutting off my horns. But do I, really? Whenever I walk down the street Their stare tell me they know I'm not quite the same as them. Wake up, wiping my face; Head too light, forehead empty. Still when I step out the door, I tell myself, time to hide my horns. Because they know I am no proper demon, neither I'm a normal human. Rough #draft
Showing the 12 most recent of 20 posts we hold for @writing_draftpiles. View and reaction counts are the latest single reading for each post, not a live figure, and a recent post is still accumulating both. A view count marked ≈ was rounded by Telegram before we ever saw it — t.me prints views in full below 1,000 and to three significant figures above, so ≈1,200,000 means somewhere between 1,150,000 and 1,249,999. Unmarked counts are exact. Text is reproduced from the public post preview and truncated for length.
Forward network
Republished by
Channels on the register that have forwarded this channel's posts into their own feed.
Built only from forwarded posts we have actually read, on both sides. Coverage is early and deliberately incomplete: a missing link means we have not read the post that would prove it, never that the relationship does not exist. Counts are distinct forwarded posts observed, so they only ever go up as we read more.
Mentions
Named by 1 registered channel — every channel on the register whose own posts have named this one, by its current username or any other username it currently holds, merged from two separately captured readings of the same fact so a namer caught by only one of them is not missed and a namer both caught is not counted twice. A username this channel has since dropped is not matched — that handle may belong to someone else now, and crediting today’s namer to yesterday’s owner would misattribute it.
Named by
Channels on the register whose posts name this channel's handle.
A mention is a weaker signal than a forward and is counted separately for that reason — naming a channel is not republishing it, and a handle in a post body is easy to place deliberately. The post counts beside each row below are distinct posts in which the handle appeared, from posts we have read on both sides — the “Named by N registered channels” figure above is a different count, of distinct NAMING CHANNELS rather than posts, and is not the sum of the rows under it.
Appears in Telegram’s recommendations for other channels
The reverse of the list above, and a different kind of signal. This does not require this channel to have ever been asked about directly — each row below is a channel we DID ask Telegram about, whose Telegram-generated list happened to include this one. A channel can appear here with an empty list above it, because being named by someone else’s query is independent of having been queried itself.
@Physiology_videos · 71,272
Telegram ranks this channel #67 of 74 here — alongside 73 others — read 26 August 2026
This channel appears in 1 seed channel's Telegram-generated recommendation list in total. Each is Telegram’s list for THAT channel, not this one — see how this is measured.
Cite this entry
A live page changes as we take new readings, so a citation should name the measurement it is based on, not just the URL. The line below cites the subscriber count as measured 19 September 2026 — this entry's latest reading, not the date you are reading this.
“SB's Draft Piles” (@writing_draftpiles), 1,892 subscribers as measured 19 September 2026. Telegram Register, tgregister.com/channel/writing_draftpiles.
Full measurement history, CC BY 4.0. Every reading this register holds for this entry, not just the latest one, as a dated, downloadable record: CSV · JSON. Free to use with attribution to tgregister.com. Each file carries its own generation timestamp, which is the figure to cite for exactly when the data was retrieved.