고독이 거기서/ 이상국 동해안 국도를 지나다보면 바닷가에 '고독'이라는 까페가 있다 통나무로 지은 집인데 지날 때마다 마당에 차 한대 없는 걸 보면 고독이 정말 고독하다는 생각이 든다 고독은 아주 오래된 친구 한때는 많은 사람들이 그에게 영혼이나 밤을 맡겨놓고 함께 차를 마시거나 며칠씩 묵어가기도 했는데 지금은 외딴 바닷가 마을에서 온몸을 간판으로 호객행위를 하며 사는 게 어려워 보인다 나는 언제나 길 위에 있으므로 그저 그를 바라볼 수밖에 없는데 가끔 동해안 국도를 지나다보면 고독이 거기서 늘 바다를 바라보고 있는 게 보인다 나는 언제나 길 위에 있으므로 그저 그를 바라볼 수밖에 없는데 가끔 동해안 국도를 지나다보면 고독이 거기서 늘 바다를 바라보고 있는게 보인다
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Channel
[خَلَاء]
@SabzeKhali
On this record: Growth · Engagement · Posts · Citations · Cite this entry
220subscribers
-3 since we began measuring on 14 August 2026
Risers and fallers across the register · movement among entries of Under 1,000.
Register entry
| Telegram ID | -1001583549685 |
|---|---|
| Type | Channel |
| Username | @SabzeKhali |
| Created | Between 1 August 2021 and 28 February 2023 — estimated from Telegram’s id allocation, not measured. How this range is calculated. |
| First recorded | 14 August 2026 |
| Last confirmed live | 17 September 2026 |
| Measurements held | 4 |
| Confirmed unchanged | 1 time, most recently 17 September 2026 |
| On Telegram | t.me/SabzeKhali |
Growth
| Measured (UTC) | Subscribers | Change |
|---|---|---|
| 17 Sept 2026, 09:56 | 220 | -1 |
| 9 Sept 2026, 07:02 | 221 | -2 |
| 14 Aug 2026, 13:01 | 223 | no change |
| 14 Aug 2026, 12:49 | 223 | first reading |
Engagement
17 posts held, back to 2 August 2026 — the reader has not yet reached the start of this channel’s public history, so older posts may sit further back, unread. Read across 1 page of Telegram’s post history, 20 posts per page.
Nothing published in the last 30 days. ERR and ER are rolling 30-day measures, so there is nothing to compute — we hold 17 posts for this entry, the most recent from 13 August 2026. An engagement rate over an empty window would be a number about nothing.
Recent posts
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Who am I without my sensitive heart?
بالاخره صبح میشه.
صبح میشه.
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من همیشه از شدت عشقی که توی وجودمه ترسیدم. از اینکه نکنه چیزی رو که دوست دارم، با همین دوست داشتن زیادم خسته کنم یا از بین ببرم. برای همین خیلی وقتها خودم رو دور نگه داشتم؛ کمتر خواستم، کمتر نزدیک شدم، کمتر اجازه دادم کسی بفهمه چقدر عمیق همهچیز رو احساس میکنم. از این میترسم که دوست داشتنم زیادی شدید باشه؛ که دستهام انقدر یک چیزی رو محکم در آغوش بگیرن که بهش صدمه بزنن. برای همین خیلی وقتها عشقم رو پنهان میکنم؛…
بیآن که بدانید٬ بی آنکه از من خواسته باشید، بیآن که صدایِ من خوب باشد٬ برای شما آواز خوانده بودم و وسطِ آواز بیآن که بدانم چرا٬ زده بودم زیرِ گریه... شهرام شیدایی
بغضی که نترکیده داره اذیتم میکنه واقعاً. انقدری دوست دارم هیچ باشم که اینجا نوشتن هم داره اذیتم میکنه، حرف زدن با آدمها، گفتن «اقا بفرمایید» موقع حساب کردن کرایه تاکسی، جواب دادن به سوالاتی که جواب دادن بهشون ضروریه، متأسفانه میدونم اینا از کجا میاد و کاری براش از دستم برنمیاد.
راستش از یه جایی به بعد این من نبودم که دستهام رو روی قفسهی سینهی بیصدای اون آدم فشار میدادم، دستهای من لرزونتر و خالیتر از این حرفها بود. نمیدونم کی بود، نمیدونم چی بود، نمیدونم چیشد، فقط ادامه میدادم و ناامیدانه امیدوار بودم.
امشب دیدن یه بچه توی مترو من رو از فروپاشی کامل روانی نجات داد.
Showing the 12 most recent of 17 posts we hold for @SabzeKhali. View and reaction counts are the latest single reading for each post, not a live figure, and a recent post is still accumulating both. A view count marked ≈ was rounded by Telegram before we ever saw it — t.me prints views in full below 1,000 and to three significant figures above, so ≈1,200,000 means somewhere between 1,150,000 and 1,249,999. Unmarked counts are exact. Text is reproduced from the public post preview and truncated for length.
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Built only from forwarded posts we have actually read, on both sides. Coverage is early and deliberately incomplete: a missing link means we have not read the post that would prove it, never that the relationship does not exist. Counts are distinct forwarded posts observed, so they only ever go up as we read more.
Cite this entry
A live page changes as we take new readings, so a citation should name the measurement it is based on, not just the URL. The line below cites the subscriber count as measured 17 September 2026 — this entry's latest reading, not the date you are reading this.
“[خَلَاء]” (@SabzeKhali), 220 subscribers as measured 17 September 2026. Telegram Register, tgregister.com/channel/SabzeKhali.
Full measurement history, CC BY 4.0. Every reading this register holds for this entry, not just the latest one, as a dated, downloadable record: CSV · JSON. Free to use with attribution to tgregister.com. Each file carries its own generation timestamp, which is the figure to cite for exactly when the data was retrieved.